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Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
10:47 pm
The hell with this. Do you know what this journal name sounds like to me? "Electrogirl" makes me sound like some kind of cheesy superhero, helping people or whatever.

I'm not. I'm just a freak. A freak who has her priorities straight - and I'm my own priority.

I'm dumping this journal. Been hanging around being not much more than bored out of my mind for far too long now. Think I'll start something new instead, something with a name a little more fitting for who I really am.

Looking for me? Look over there instead.

current mood: bitchy

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Thursday, January 22nd, 2004
11:09 pm
Things are never dull in L.A.

I'm lying. L.A. is very dull lately. There's just not as many not-exactly-legal transactions going down since the local law firm went "good" (also known as annoying) on most of my old clients. Things just keep getting quieter around here. Hell, the story in the newspaper this morning about that new vigilante in town was the most interesting thing I've read all week.

Case in point: I just read that Ben and JLo broke up again. I'd be crushed if I cared.

current mood: bored

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Friday, December 19th, 2003
4:32 pm - Yes, I am still alive.
Not that any of you care, but I'm posting anyway. Nothing in life has been earth-shattering enough lately to write it down.

I've been clubbing a lot lately, and also checking out all of the newest restaurants when they open. Life is nice when cash is not an issue. Strangely, I like going out these days... with my chip, I can be around people, and in a club, I don't have to talk to any of them. Most of them just annoy me. I was at that new Brasserie place in Santa Monica last night, and I met up with a some people who don't seem like total idiots. Nice change. Hanging out with them was oddly enjoyable.

Then, some random blonde girl (not the one named Kate I was chatting with, another one) showed up with a friend who looked like hell from what looked like days of crying, and the other of the two I was hanging out with, Ginny, was all of a sudden very concerned about this chick's problems. I suppose it's nice of her to take an interest and be a good samaritan and waste her time. The blonde, I think her name was Anne, just got cheated on by some loser. Sucks to be her, that's for sure. What kind of jerk was she dating? Just goes to show that trusting people isn't worth the trouble.

current mood: recumbent

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Friday, October 24th, 2003
5:09 pm
I've discovered another side benefit of my new accessory. Things like this don't give me massive headaches anymore. I've become a big fan of modern technology.

Haven't updated for a while. Been busy. An old client of mine, one that I'd thought was just a pile of walking dead here in L.A., got back in business not too long ago. Don't know why, don't want to ask. A few weeks later, some flunky from their purchasing office got in touch with me about "collecting" some items for them. Quasi-mystical scientific crap. Doesn't matter, it's all still business as usual. I get what they want, I hand it over, I get paid.

Not working much these days. I'm not out looking for work, either. I do it just to relieve boredom. What, I'd join a yoga or feng shui class? No thanks. I suppose that could have a quasi-normal life, now that I have that lovely little chip, but what the hell would I do with it?

current mood: moody

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Sunday, September 28th, 2003
10:41 am
Charles appeared on my doorstep the other night. Told me that either the world was about to end and he'd be off on some alternate dimension pleasure cruise or we were all about to lose the last few months. Yes, this time, I believed him. He was upset about it, but honestly... Not much of a choice, is it? Time for a re-write.

I'm sure there have been some touching goodbyes and some "moments" and gnashing of teeth and general angst about this. This might be bad for some people. Not me. I say bring it on. The last few months haven't been fabulous for me - at least, not recently. And from the little I've heard, maybe it's best if this doesn't ever get used.

I'm ready for a do-over. This time around, I'll try not to cause any major blackouts.

It's supposed to be today. I've been wandering around all morning. I wonder where I'll land? That is, if it works. I could be about to die for all I know. Either way, it's out of my hands.

current mood: thoughtful

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Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003
9:02 pm
I was set for a nice evening at home. I'd just opened a bottle of Riesling, I'd ordered up some Thai food, and I was half watching last week's repeat of Queer Eye for the Straight Guy - there's a new episode on later - when the phone rang. My habit lately has been to let the machine get it, so I didn't move.

It was Charles. I'd heard that he was in Canada. I guess he's back. He sounded... different. Strained. I don't know, there was just something about his voice...

I think I need to call him back. Let TiVo record QE for me. This seems more important right now.

Yes, I know, I keep telling myself that I shouldn't give him the time of day after what happened. Maybe I'm getting soft. Or maybe it's the wine.

current mood: pensive

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Sunday, September 14th, 2003
11:03 pm
The job's done. No problems at all. Got the finial, no muss, no fuss. Even got the job done with a museum full of tourists.

Will call Ms. Jameson in the morning and arrange for delivery. I'm not looking forward to that, as she'd said it would be at her office, which means I might see someone I know there. Didn't tell him I was doing some work for his company. The chances that I'll run into him are slim at best, but it still would be... uncomfortable.

But I'll deal with that later. For now, a self-congratulatory Appletini.

current mood: accomplished

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Friday, September 12th, 2003
10:40 pm
My meeting went about as well as meetings like that usually go. But, we will be able to do some business, and maybe more after this first one. The job will be a cinch. I'd feel bad taking her money if things like that bothered me. She wants me to keep in touch by e-mail, which is fine by me, but it has to be this "official" e-mail she gave me. Whatever. If she wasn't paying me so damn much...

Enough about work.

Charles came by to see me last night. I wasn't expecting him, and I wasn't exactly at my best, but he didn't seem to care. He just wanted to talk. He told me the world's about to end - which could be him trying to make things right with us again, but he's not the type. However, last I checked, he and the do-gooders he works with usually stop that kind of thing from happening. It would be nice to keep the world around for a while. Life right now isn't perfect, but it's been worse.

I hate admitting this, but I've missed him.

current mood: pensive

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Thursday, September 11th, 2003
12:06 am
It's about damn time. Phone doesn't ring these days unless it's him and half the time when he calls I don't answer anyway. Time was my services were sought after. Does nobody need anything "acquired" anymore, for god's sake? Is the world economy so bad that people can't afford me anymore? I will not lower my rates. It's not that I need money - ever - but there's a principle involved. I'm worth what I charge and more.

But no work? There's only so much "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy" a girl can watch.

Today, finally, I got a call. Some guy named Spencer. Local job. Getting the details at a meeting late tomorrow afternoon with his boss. Meeting her at the Polo Lounge in the Beverly Hills Hotel.

If this job isn't a waste of my time, and if she really can pay, then I could have a decent day tomorrow.

current mood: optimistic

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Wednesday, July 30th, 2003
8:11 pm
I'm having trouble with this concept.

He had sex with a dead woman. A walking, talking dead woman, but still dead. But more importantly, he had sex with a woman who isn't me. It's not like I'm looking for a white picket fence and a minivan, but if he's playing the field, I'd like to know.

Supposedly, some blond girl took over his body or something in this case. Worst excuse ever fabricated? I certainly think so. However, he says it has to do with the dreams that have been plaguing him for weeks. Yes, the nightmares are bad - I've watched him while he's in the midst of them, but this? I don't think so.

He says that he can explain everything.

I can't wait to hear it.

current mood: jealous

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Saturday, July 12th, 2003
10:23 pm
I'm hardly a stranger to nightmares. I wouldn't exactly call my past life easy, and that sometimes creeps up on me while I sleep. It's never enjoyable.

Watching what Gunn goes through at night when he's sleeping - I can't imagine what is happening in his head. Honestly, I don't think that I want to. His nightly dreaming seems to make any nightmare I've ever had no more than a fluffy daydream. This is a man who can take a lot and come up swinging, but he barely nods off before it starts plaguing him. It's wearing him down. Sometimes he seems fully awake while dreaming, calling me odd names or just talking what seems to be total nonsense. It gets freaky - I've had to jump away more than once from him. Most of my true rest happens after he leaves.

Strangely, I'm sticking around. Don't ask me - I don't quite get it either. He says that my being nearby helps, and that he gets more sleep with me around... if this is more sleep, I don't want to consider how it was before I returned.

current mood: worried

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Wednesday, July 9th, 2003
9:19 pm
I decided to blow the dust off of my journal. I've been out of town for a while, busy collecting more frequent flier miles than I could ever use. My work keeps me occupied and focused, but more importantly, it's fun... like playing a different game every time. I don't need the money - I'm still doing very well on my past transactions - but I do like a challenge. I've been taking jobs where I can get them, as per usual, but I'm doing them with my de-electrifying chip still installed. Electricity free. See how good I truly am.

I'm good. Damn good.

I returned to Los Angeles on Monday and left a message for him, but I haven't received a response yet. Strange. Disappointing as well - I've missed his company. The way I see things, I have two options.

Option A: Wait around for him to call.

Option B: Knock on his door.

I don't like waiting. Not when there are more enjoyable pastimes.

current mood: bored

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Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
8:04 pm
Magic Number10
JobPorn Star
PersonalityUnfulfilled Dreamer
TemperamentBest Not To Ask
SexualIf I Have To
Likely To WinThe Lottery
Me - In A WordUnique
Brought to you by MemeJack

Interesting results... The description word is accurate, at least.

current mood: amused

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Saturday, May 24th, 2003
7:43 pm - Opportunities
The town of Sunnydale, just up the coast, is a now big hole in the ground. It's been all over the news this week. Earthquake, sinkhole - the talking heads have more theories than I have tubes of lipstick. I've been hired several times to "collect" items from that one tiny town. It was a surprising treasure trove of items that my clients were quite eager to have.

Had I known about its impending doom, I might have done a bit a freelance work for myself. Find out what might be there, collect it, find a bidder or three... not that I'm desperate for cash, mind you, but I'm feeling out of practice. I hate to pass up opportunities. Plus, I would hope that if there had been any advance notice, someone would have told me.

The riots, looting, and general mayhem have calmed back down to their usual levels. This is L.A., so the riots weren't all that unusual - what was weird was the huggy love-your-neighbor crap. Glad everyone came back to their senses - though the initial loss of her was likely as hard on me as it was on everyone else.

I've seen Gunn since, and he has changed a bit - in ways I like. Seems he's done well for himself lately, too. He's vague on the details, but the limo and the suits look good on him. Very good.

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Monday, April 28th, 2003
4:40 pm
I can't believe it.

I finally made it to the Hyperion -- I've seen Jasmine now. She's so beautiful. I hope she invites me up to speak to her sometime. She makes me feel so much better about myself, not like a freak....

But she says that Gunn and Angel and the others have turned on her. I don't understand it -- how could they try to hurt someone so beautiful and loving?

Jasmine says Connor has found Gunn and they'll be bringing them back. I hope with her love Jasmine can bring Gunn back to us.

current mood: anxious

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Friday, April 11th, 2003
12:34 pm
Got a little sidetracked on my way to Anne's. I was on my way this morning when I saw...her....

She's so beautiful. And seeing her somehow made me feel less like a freak.

First sex, now Jasmine.

Life is good!

current mood: enthralled

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Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
1:26 pm
Back in LA. Just in time for an earthquake. But that was nothing compared to the way the earth moved when Gunn and I...heh.

I should try to hook back up with Gunn (in more ways than one). He gave me the address of the place where this "Anne" who needs my help is. I'll check there first.

Still finding it hard to resist the urge to nance and preen.

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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003
12:43 am
...the hell?

Where am I?

Okay, own body. That's a plus. And I still have L.I.S.A. Definite plus. No longer blue sexless demon.

Was this some sort of wacky nightmare? How the hell could I have been in Iraq? Hunting that asshole Saddam?

But if it was a dream, I would've woken up in LA. Crap.

If I was in the demon's body, what the hell was in mine?

I gotta get back to LA and find Gunn.

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Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
4:19 pm
:: cackles mischievously ::

Am not as cute as I was, but powers v. v. fun!

:: zaps electrical lines outside Summers house ::

Lights go on.

:: zaps electrical lines outside Summers house ::

Lights go off.

:: zaps electrical lines outside Summers house ::

Lights go on.

:: zaps electrical lines outside Summers house ::

Lights go off.

:: nances and preens ::

current mood: amused

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12:28 am
:: blinks ::

Am human girl now?

How did that happen?

:: reaches around, finds metal box on back and pulls it off ::

What's this?

:: shrugs, stuffs in pocket ::

:: lightning shoots from fingertips ::

Am electric???

:: shoots more lightning ::

Am v. electric!

:: nances about and preens ::

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